Change is difficult. People often say it’s something they want, something they work towards. And in a broad sense, that’s kind of true sometimes. We want to see positive change in our communities, in our systems, and even in our family units. Making that change happen can be hard work.
One of the hardest things a person can change, I think, is themselves. Me personally? I’m all for other people changing. I love when a change I worked toward with a group comes about. But when it comes time to change some things in my own life?
Pump. The Breaks.
I’ve got this project to work on.
I’d rather watch TV.
I’m really dedicated to X, Y, and Z.
I’ve found this out recently through some counseling. My therapist says I’m finding distractions, rather than working on myself.
And she’s absolutely right. I’d much rather take on 32 new projects, than do work with another person and with God to examine who I am, who God wants me to be, who I want to be, and what it would take (see: what needs to change) to make that happen.
I’m doing it though. I’m engaging in the process. Right now I’m doing one new thing every day. That has been hard, but it has been good.
I’m changing already.